Happy Halloween.

This evening's Halloween sky was full of magic. We saw fiery, sunset clouds, the moon.....even a rainbow.....all at the same time in different parts of the sky. It was beautiful! As I was posting these, I realized I didn't get any pictures of my son.....haha. He wasn't interested in stopping for pictures anyway. We had…

bedtime thoughts

So, in trying to pull myself away from my old distraction, I've discovered a new distraction in my love for tiny houses. Or not even just the tiny houses but homes with a rustic, bohemian decor that are also on the smaller side....cabins, A-Frames, etc. I am in love with that whole aesthetic. I've been…

red light, stop!

Update: So I caved. Grrrr! I did want to apologize for the pictures and you know when I get something in my head, I'm relentless. He shot me down as usual but it doesn't matter because I said what I wanted to anyway. He's probably mad at me but that can't be helped. I'm not…

green light, go!

I've spent the day in quiet contemplation, trying to get used to my "new normal". When I did my meditation this morning, my intentions were to let go of any remaining expectations and to strengthen my willpower as it relates to my situation with him. In the past, it has always been so hard to…

soft goodbyes.

I said my final goodbye to him. At least for now. I think I may be ok with it. The thought of him being happy makes me happy. Even if what makes him happy also makes me sad. Because I love him. Selflessly. Still, I am a little sad and I am ok with that,…

blackout.

I still can't seem to get him off my mind. It's saturated with thoughts of him today. I'm trying, I really am. I'm watching a movie and every song that plays makes me think of him. This one especially... https://youtu.be/NghXim1GIWc Blackout If you would've just let me in Who knows what could've been? They tell…